Settling in

2 weeks of school down...14 to go until Christmas break.

I've discovered so far this semester (like I didn't already know) that I'm just not into school anymore--the group projects, the papers, all the reading. I don't know if it's because I went straight from undergrad into grad school without a break and now have been in school for 17, going on 18, consecutive years, or the fact that most of my textbooks talk about "right wing repression" as the reason for all society's ills, or the fact that our DD system is so crappy out there right now that i feel like I need to DO something, instead of just sitting in a classroom and shadowing people as the intern. Don't get me wrong, I like my internship, and I've learned a LOT in the 6 days I've been there so far, but I'm tired. Tired of being a student, tired of having homework, tired of not getting paid for all the hours I put in, tired of being told that my political leanings caused everything that's wrong in the world.

I want to graduate, but I'm scared what will happen when I do. Brian's sending in the first of his grad school applications this week, and with that putting our living situation next year into limbo. Where will we be? Where will I find a job? How will we pay for things? Who knows.

In wedding news (i'm trying to stay positive about it despite all the fluctuating variables), I found a band for the reception thanks to some help from the Triangle Swing Dance Society. Next up: finding a florist. And graduating. Making it to graduation without exploding in "repressive right wing" anger is a big goal right now. We'll see how it goes.